"All I Can Do"

9 August 2006
10:27pm


"Be patient/Try harder/I'll help you in my own way/ See clearer/ Be happy/ Honey, it will be alright."

That's the chorus to Club 8’s All I Can Do.. Honestly, I think God was speaking to me when He put that song in my head earlier.

God is giving me a lesson in patience.

Lately, I've been reading and re-reading books like Captivating and Wild At Heart and nothing springs out from the pages more than Eve's role in the Fall. Eve falls because SHE DECIDES TO TAKE MATTERS INTO HER OWN HANDS. Otherwise, she never would have taken the apple to begin with.

Chiko is a control-freak. Chiko likes to take matters into her own hands. Chiko is a thriving independent young woman who revels in her self-sufficiency.

Chiko also needs to learn what it's like to NEED someone, to be VULNERABLE. Chiko needs to be rescued. But first, she must ALLOW herself to be rescued.

I was chatting with Reg earlier this morning and we were reminiscing about how we used to fight. A LOT:

Chiko: We used to fight A LOT. Hahaha.
Reg: I know. Why did we fight a lot ba?
Chiko: I don't know.. You always seemed to be so.. mean :P Like I never did anything right.. Even if I was genuinely trying to be nice.
Reg: Me?
Chiko: YEP. I know it was crazy for me to think we could be friends so soon.. But kasi it kinda worked with me and (you know who).. But still.. You guys are different and I shouldn't have expected the same reaction so my fault din.. And it was hard because we were pretty much in the same group
Reg: Hmmm... Maybe you were trying too hard... iI didn't have a chance to be 'nice' to you because you always were ahead of me.
Chiko: Aw.. I'm sorry.. I guess I never let you try..
Reg: No need to be sorry. It's all behind us now. We have something better.
Chiko: I know..

Right.

That's it. God's telling me: "Be patient/Try harder/I'll help you in my own way/ See clearer/ Be happy/ Honey, it will be alright."

I hear You loud and clear, Father. I will STOP trying to take matters into my own hands.

God has changed my heart for a reason. He placed this desire in my heart because He will fulfill His wonderful purpose for me. “The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me.. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” (Psalm 138:8, 139:14, 16) God's best, not mine. His way, not mine. His time, not mine.

"Be patient/Try harder/I'll help you in my own way/ See clearer/ Be happy/ Honey, it will be alright."

I WILL BE RESCUED. I know You will make everything beautiful in Your own time. Yes, everything will be alright.

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Owww.. Wisdom tooth's growing. :(